(via thresca)

It's not about the 'what was's or 'what had been's, but about the 'what is's. You may have messed up in the past, but it is what you do now, whether it's fixing the mess or just doing something you know is right, that matters.

This polariod poked me in the chest and stuck in my face a question that I have been asking myself the past few days. I know that this year has not officially ended yet, but it's probably the only time I'll get to grab a breather and finally think about how the year has been. I'm not proud at all to say that this year was just plain wasted. Wasted in the sense that, I took my eyes off God and I tried to do things my way, and now I'm really struggling. Things have been better I guess, and I'm starting to hear from God again, after shutting Him out, and I just want to thank God for all that He has done, really. And this whole.. trying period just made me realise that each moment I waste away was a moment I could have define myself, make a stand about who I am, whereby I could have grown stronger. No doubt I did, but I could have grown so much more.

Nonetheless, I'm not going to wallow in guilt and self-pity and I'm really going to make the rest of the year count, growing closer to God and doing the things I love :) I think the past few days really has been amazing, esp. ystd, because I finally remembered what it was like to just surrender completely to God to let Him have His way. So the "middle" that tere talks about? It starts now :)

don't let your past, your guilt, whatever hold you back from becoming all that you are meant to be ;)

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sis shir: you know the today's advertisement? The turning girl? Do you see her turning closewise or anti-clockwise?
me: I can make her turn both ways.
sis shir: Really? I can only see her turning clockwise. But some days, I catch her turning anti-clockwise!
All: LOL.
janet: That's because she [me] uses both sides of her brain.
sis shir: ... Thanks.
LOLLLLL. 'cos jan was just explaining why I could make the girl turn both ways, but it sounded like sis shir only uses half of her brain, hahahaha.

Love visionaries <3