saw this on gayer's tumblr. isn't this so pretty! the colour combination rocks, all the hues and shades. it's (almost) exactly how I'd like my room to be when I have an apartment: fairy lights, pictures on the wall, stacks of books, my laptop, comfy bed, a table (with things all over it). i'd use more colours though (which CAN be expensive). but this is just so lovely! the lights give off such a cosy feel <3

I've decided that when I grow up and get a shoe-box apartment (not literally), I'm going to make sure that the only things that are on the floor are furniture and not books, clothes, notebooks, hair accessories, whateverwhateverwhatever.

Okay so maybe not so drastic, but for the most part, my floor will be one that I can see the surface.

I had just finished sweeping my house and I got really, really irritated at my room (in case you don't know, i share it with my sis) because of the amount of things on the floor. I was looking under my bed and there are items there which I clearly remembered weren't there before I left for Taman! My sister's side wasn't any much better either.

So yes, I'm making a mental note now that when I get my own house, my books and clothes and whatnot will not end up on the floor. In any case that they do, I'll make sure that I pack them up.

Anyway sweeping wasn't so bad today because I didn't sweat like crazy as I always did. I either got so drained and didn't refill my body fluid during Taman or that in Taman I've sweat so much that water escapes through my skin only when the weather is super hot. I'm going with the latter.

I shall leave on this note and continue with the list of household chores my mum decided to occupy me with. I, who has just returned from Taman, has so much to do as compared with someone who has been facing the computer for hours ever since the holidays started?! Okay actually I don't mind, 'cos at least i have something to do (I'm only officially starting on my holiday assignments next week). I think my mum must have a purpose in mind: she's trying to brainwash me into wanting to become a housewife. You don't have to get a degree for that, and that means that I wouldn't have to go to London (all very unsure, we won't know for certain right?) (my mum doesn't want me to go London even though she doesn't say anything) but this only persuades to be a cleanliness freak when I stay in London. I'm totally fine with being messy but being dirty (and i don't mean like camping dirty. i mean like, having-a-choice-to-clean-up-properly-but-still-don't dirty) is just.. gross.

Oh, hello tv, hello sofa, hello bed (i've missed you!), hello toilet (you too!), hello fan, hello laptop, hello phone (and youuuu!), hello hello hello!

I'm currently stuck to the sofa because I haven't felt anything so.. comfortable the past few days. I'm tempted to just fall asleep now (and I'm tired so yeah, it's even more tempting).

Taman Negara has been a wonderful (albeit muddy, dirty, smelly, tiring) memory with my crazy class. (I don't care what the panel of teachers say; we all know that 3e is the best class!) It's the kind of trip that you have to just go and do everything, get all dirty and muddy and wet and have fun. Oh and not be afraid of getting bruises, abbrasion, cuts, bites and the likes. Stir in a lot of screaming and singing and it's a real adverture camp, heh.

The activities are cool, the places we went to are cool. I can't believe I'm saying this but I actually enjoyed everything, even trekking/hiking and all. I wished it didn't rain though, so that the activities were more enjoyable but then again, I'm not complaining because the rain has made things even funnier (screams!) :P
Note to all: if you want to go to a winter country because it's so hot in Singapore, just go to Taman Negara and try rapid shooting. It's cheaper and almost as cold.

The whole trip has been kind of surreal, idkw. Maybe because it's different from other camps, like we didn't have to rush (okay we did, but it didn't feel like it) and.. it just felt surreal. LOL. but it was good fun, really, esp. with the coolest class which can make anything, even a looooooong bus ride, fun. 3E ROCKS :D

haha i had to say this: last night I was in M2 bunk, on the wei li's bed next to xue ting and suddenly a bee flew in. I told xue ting and she started shrieking. Those who know me well enough would know that i'm kind of sadistic- when people scream continuously, i'll start laughing. And so I did hahahaha. Xue ting kept hitting me because I couldn't stop heh.

oh, and su ian caught a water leech. charlie. the poor thing died today and she was devastated.

I got a really, really, really comforting hug last night :) Okay I asked for it but yeah, it was still nice.

I'm glad that I'm back though 'cos immah tiredddd. God has been good through this trip because without Him, I wouldn't have made it through the camp. Even during the camp, He taught me different things and I need to fix my eyes on Him and stay rooted in His teachings.
Can't wait for guang hua to send/upload the photos we took on the bus!!

Awww, I think that Kahlan is so sweet to Richard :) I think that Kahlan is really pretty (nice smile, nice eyes!) and Bridget Regan brought out Kahlan's character really well.

I'm excited for saturday because I'm going to have dinner with one of my fav bunch of people!! Plan cancelled, we're gunnah have cell OUTING on sunday well we haven't decided on when but i'm still excited whoohoo! (L)(L)(L)

I couldn't help but take in a deeeeep breath when I walk into church today. My church has this smell that smells like.. my church. Not a church; my church. I don't know, it smells of belonging, like I belong there. And I do! Haha I don't know how to explain it but it just felt so right :)

I realised that praise and worship in the morning is SOOOO amazing. I love Saturday afternoon worship but Sunday morning worship is another league altogether. It's like, wow, you really can't resist singing along with the worship min. Once again, I don't know how to explain it but it was really good.

Ignyte's Got Talent was AWESOME :D I really enjoyed serving alongside with the drama ministry. It is truly God's grace that everything has turned out so well in the end, considering how little time we had to put everything together. Praise God!

And you know what's the best thing about next week?
CELL DINNER :D :D :D I'm suuuupa excited!

God is cool :) He has been really, really, really good.

Jie: Must be positive mah.
Me: Yepp.
Jie: Otherwise how to be a good example for my sister (me) you know. I mean, I whine then she whines then never ending.

LOL.

At the end of the day when I crawl into bed and all the lights go out, my thoughts can finally rise to the surface. Yes, I'm a little bruised, slightly broken, and permanently scarred but I'm still here aren't I? I'm still fighting, I'm still waking up everyday to go through it all over again. This life may be hard as hell but it's still a gift and I'm going to live every moment of it.

- Unknown (via springzephyr)

Sis Eliza: I'm dizzy. I've got motion sickness.
Gid: Are you pregnant?
(LOL!!)

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You know how they always say in church not to put your self-worth in anyone but God? Because Man is fallible but God is perfect. The thing is, I don't feel inferior or something. I'm just confused. I don't know why but I feel as though I'm losing everyone important to me. Not everyone, but enough to make me feel really :/ It feels like I did something wrong or everyone suddenly decides that I have some sort of infectious disease so they are staying away from me.

Or maybe I'm just being oversensitive.

Anyway, I'm thankful (even more so now) for the people who are still around me. It means a whole lot to me, esp. those who are in my class. And my class in general because they are such a hilarious group of people. Couldn't stop laughing during CF today. *grateful*

omg i miss amadea and kenneth :( i miss prayer group, i miss my core leaders, i miss how everything used to be.
i miss 2008. this year really, really, really sucks.

On a brighter side, I'm going to have cell dinner with one of the best bunch of people I've ever met and I can't wait! One big family together once again :)

Oh my God, I need You.

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When I was P6, I had an argument with my then best friend. I remembered saying that I'd never have another best friend other than Jesus.

*snorts at irony*

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i srsly think that the school should allow Ms Greenblatt to go Taman with us. She's our co-form for goodness sake. There will always be mock ASEAN conference but she's only going to be our co-form for these few months.

Me: You're going to be here on Monday right?
Ms Greenblatt: Err.. yup. I'm going to be here.. forever.

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I'm tired.

And I'm wondering why Cecelia Ahern named the story of Rosie and Alex Where Rainbows End.

Do you know what is more depressing than not finding the shop that you want to get something from?

FINDING THE SHOP AND REALISING THAT WHAT YOU WANTED TO GET IS SOLD. And it's one-of-a-kind which means that you can forget about ever getting something like it.

I'm not even wanting to get it for myself. I won't be this depressed if I wanted it for myself. Oh man oh man oh man, so depressing. howwwwwwwwwww~

CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHERE YOU CAN GET A NICE WOODEN PENDANT NECKLACE? TYVM.
I don't understand: is it so hard to find a NICE WOODEN PENDANT NECKLACE? why is everything so PLASTIC nowadays? roar.

The heart is stronger than you think (like it can go through anything): even when you think it can't, it finds a way to still push on. Sometimes you want to run away (ain't got the patience for the pain). If you don't believe it, look into your heart: the beat goes on.

It's like we all have better days-- problems getting all up in your face. Just because you go through it don't mean it got to take control, no. You ain't gotta find no hiding place because the heart can beat the hate. Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you and sayin' you can't go on. You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind.

If you fall, dust it off, don't let up. You can live your life. Let your heart be your guide. Everything will be alright. Light up the dark if you follow your heart, and you will know that you're good if you trust in the good, and it will get better, through whatever.

Don't you know you can go be your own miracle? :)

If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don't give up, who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what? Don't give up, through it all, just stand up!

happy birthday you :)
shall not say too much here 'cos it'd all be in your (long) (belated) birthday letter ;D

love you, hope you had a great day.
*hugs*