I love rehearsals. :D they are like, da bombxz. but they are really exhausting. ): still, i think that we are doing so well during rehearsals, and I bet that it's gonna be sweeeeeeet during thea actual day. :) Except, I don't really know how I'm gonna get to church by 7.30 on sunday. I think I'll have to wake up at 6.30. ):

to shi ming, kaiyun and whoever is coming: i will be at church very early alr (like, in the morning), so I think you people might want to grab lunch on your own. you can take the bus from tp (kaiyun, you know how to get there right?) or from school (852) (kai, the stop will still be the same), and there is a hawker centre near the bus stop. Oh, and to get to my church, you have to cross the two traffic lights nearest to the bus stop, turn right, and keep walking until you reach an overhead bridge. oh, and if you don't wanna eat at the hawker centre, you people can walk further down to serene's centre (kai, i think i showed you this place too right?) to grab some Macs or something. :)

oh, and I just recalled something. I passed history, whoo! :D praise God, (: i thought i was gonna fail.

kay, i'm veh tired/sleepu now. it's like, too early in the morning for me to be awake. good night people.

MR LAUUUU! I keeeeeeeel you! >:/

aye, so embarrassing! *hides face*

and i was still, "thank God he didnt call me." the first time round! O:

 

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"OI, before you leave, clear up the litter."
"No one will actually listen to you, you know?"
"I don't care."
"She just wants to say her piece. *laughs*"
"I don't care, I don't care.."

hahaha. i was laughing with stalker at doll's expression. so funnnnnnaye la! :D hmmm, i miss doll much. ): we haven't managed to talk much, because we haven't been running into each other often. managed to catch with with s though. :) taking a photo with s was like, oh man! ;D haha, but i love her so!

aye, i miss pretty. ): and i'm going back to IJ tmrw, yay yay! :D can see mellyyyyyywong! (:

All I hear is raindrops, falling on the rooftop.
Oh baby tell me what you have to go.
'cos this pain I feel, it won't go away.
And today, I'm offcially missing you.

 

It's a bad idea to listen to this song while i'm watching the rain fall. aye. and the rain looked more like snow. except they were falling faster.

 

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Oral. Was. HORRIBLE. Kenneth was laughing at me all the way. -.- I was so nervous, my legs were shaking. The last time my legs shook was during Honours' Night, when it was almost my turn to go on stage.

Things that were said to/asked of me [and the things I felt like saying] :
When you're ready, you can start. [what if I'm never ready?]
Where do you do your geoceries? [eh, my PARENTS are the one who do the geoceries. do i look like i go shopping for food?]
So like you said, there is a variety at the supermarket. So how do you know which type of products you want to be? [i don't?]
How do you spend your Sundays? [i do nothing on Sundays, and why did you just suddenly change the topic?]
So what do you think is the difference between a provision shop and a supermarket? [uh, like, i think, you should stop switching the topics 'cos you're making me nervous.]

Oh yeah, and I got Ms Chionh. I was like, crossing fingers, hope I don't get Ms Chionh, and i think I should give up on fingers-crossing. I totally didn't know what to say! Kenneth was complaining that he was too over-dramatic, but at least he had something to say. Every question she asked, I said like what, 2 sentences? And you know what's the best part? Ms Tean just walks into the hall like she owns it, and goes over to Ms Chionh and plop Ms Chionh's change and iCafe on the table. I completely just stopped there and then, AND KENNETH LAUGHED. He was super loud, so I laughed too. But the whole thing was so not funny. What on earth did I say, "SUPER?" like, at the start of my sentence? -.- And what's with the family thing and all? I said, "SHOPPING AND TAKING NEOPRINTS." uh, right. Like, 2 years ago. I mean, spend more time with each other la! And it's not like you have to specially take time off right? I mean, i don't have to, so what was i supposed to say? I need a script which tells me all the politically correct answers I should have given.

it was the most awkward conversation I have ever had with Ms Chionh.

Oh wait, no, it's the 2nd most awkward. The time she made me feel as though I was going through counselling takes the gold medal of all gold medals.

And it didn't help, because I asked Jonathon about the teachers who do oral, and i think i am soooo dead. Why couldn't I have gotten some random teacher who doesn't know me?

Chinese wasn't any better. It's not as though the passage was difficult, but when I sat, it was like, I barely knew what i was saying. And I was going softer and softer, and huang ying didn't care. -.- And what kind of question is that? WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT RACIAL HARMONY? O_O uhhhhh...? and WHAT MEASURES DO YOU THINK WE SHOULD TAKE TO PRESERVE RACIAL HARMONY? well, i don't know, because half my class is always making fun of randeep, which i guess you can catergorised it as racism, and I can't control them, so what am i supposed to say? And I knew I wasn't talking in proper chinese. I told my mum about the whole thing and she laughed. Poor mummy, have to put up with her demented eldest/elder daughter raving about how she screwed up her oral. That, and cannot speak chinese properly. AND talk about neoprints of all things during oral. -.- i seriously should shoot myself.

But I was seriously so upset. Especially about the english one. I was so perturbed by it, I didn't care if I failed my chinese oral or not. Kaiyun told me not to cry 3 times (i didn't, but i felt as though i wanted to throw a ball and smash it into some window and break it), hannah and gio each told me once not to be so upset. And I was complaining to javier about the xiao li cang dao thing, and i was like, "it's like, a thousand knives behind the smile, and the knives are piercing through my heart." aye, only ken will understand la.

yeah, played volleyball with ken and gio. poor kenneth had to endure my spikes, because i had to fa xie. ANDDDDD, i saw wangls, and i was ranting again. About chinese this time. And she totally didnt know what to say. aye. ):

i wish MOE will ban oral. I think you can pretty much tell how a student speaks from the way she writes her essays.

oh, and my pm was, "shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,                                                     i wish MOE would just ban oral examinations." and vincent decided to comment on it.

*# 0me9amaX #*         this i   s            #37!          says:
yeah agree to it.
*# 0me9amaX #*         this i   s            #37!          says:
but aint oral 'F U N '?
that snapshot girl. says:
no.
that snapshot girl. says:
except when vincent stands up and scratches his butt in front of everybody.
*# 0me9amaX #*         this i   s            #37!          says:
there's like flour on the floor i've sat?
*# 0me9amaX #*         this i   s            #37!          says:
itchy pls.
*# 0me9amaX #*         this i   s            #37!          says:
except when chuyi flopped her oral despo-ly.
that snapshot girl. says:
yeah man. let's all laugh at her.

):

 

i'm not whining or anything, but I seriously would rather go to school then do ICT day. Or go to school, with my friends, and do ICT day. I've been on the computer since 9.30am, and I'm not done yet. Ah, well, I'll do the comparison chart when I come back from oral. :/

At least we don't have to do other things [yet]. I very much prefer the previous system, where we only had to go to 'classroom' to find out what homework we have. Now, we have to go all over the place, just to find one piece of work. And half the time, I don't get the notes and slides the teachers upload to help us. Having lessons in school is the best man.

 

aye, who am i kidding? I'm terrified for oral. Ok, i was, like an hour ago, but now I'm feeling..ok I'm a little nervous, but then..
i hope i don't get any teachers i know. omg, what if i get ms pan? ayeeeeeeeeeeee.

 

to esther lee : i know you're tired babe, but persevere on, and find joy and strength in the Lord ok! that's all i can tell you. i face crap everyday of the week too y'know, and i really wanna give up too, but we can't, not now. don't let the things of now cause you to let go of what you have done so far. You are more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus yeah? :D love you babe.

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. - Romans 8:37

yeah man, so i am going to conquer my oral (both!) tmrw, because i am more than a conqueror through God. YAY. :D
but i still hope i won't get Ms Chionh. aye. :/

 

Ms Tay is nice, but trying to find a present for her for teachers' day, with abigail and kaiyun, is not fun. 2 whole hours was spent just to find a suitable present for Ms Tay. But I'm a happy girl, 'cos I found the candlessss! Ok, I'm starting to wonder if I should have bought just one, but ahh, I alr bought it, so nevermind.

and my feet hurts. but it was fun to hang out with abigail and kaiyun. AND PLAZA SING HAS NICE CANDLES, YAY! :D so prettttttty!

and i found out something totally.. uh.

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EXIT, a drama production by Ignyte Ministry, Trinity @ Adam Road.

details :
30th August 2008, Saturday, 4.45pm, Chapel (first floor)
31st August 2008, Sunday, 10am, Red/Blue Rooms (3rd floor)

HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE. :)

 

hey people, i really hope that you would come when you see this. As part of the crew and cast, I saw how the whole thing came together, and even though I know what would be going on, I could really feel that God's behind this whole thing, and that it was going to be something big. It's gonna be really interesting, really exciting, so I hope to see you there! Leave me a tag, or sms me if you are interested kay? Really hope to see you there!
<3, chu

to jerm, yeetat, abigail, kaiyun & shiming: I hope that you people can come yeah? :D

 

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you know how sometimes, some things which we don't like are the very thing that's good for us?

i just have to keep that in mind about chinese tuition. but arghhhh, i hate it so much. >:/ i just wish that i could stop chinese tuition, completely, because honestly, i don't see it helping me. really. and it's so boring. my mum says that it's my duty to make it interesting, but hello, isn't that the job of the tutor? rawr.

this is driving me nuts, and i can't find my mp4.

let go, dear girl.
and i mean you, you, you, and whoever that is trying to let go of something, of someone.

yeah.

 

You are my rock, on You I stand,
Safe from the storms that surround me.
You're my only Rock, in You I can,
Don't have to rely on my own strength.

 

I can't pretend I don't run from the feelings I'm trying to hide.
Must get the focus off me and my problems.
I look to the Lord.

 

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I'm glad that I didn't wear my contacts today. :/

many thanks to my gooooooood friends: hannah, sam & xuting! :D thanks for cheering me up, and being there for me. (: congrats to sam & xt for a paper well done, and thanks to hannah, for doing some fake 'bleeding love' mtv in the toilet. ;D i love you all!

This is to Ms Natalie Pang Something Something :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PANG! :) aye, thirteen years old alr, hope you had a great day! haha, even though you had your chinese ct today. anddddd now you thirteen years old alr right?, MUST TUCK IN SHIRT. Don't wait for me to tell you. ;D and must listen to Ms Goh hor (or any of your teachers). and yah, you've been a goooooood girl, and IM PROUD OF YOU! :D haha, I pray that you'll grow in God, and that you'll come to know him better. jiayou in whatever you do ok! for basketball, or for your studies. aye, next time i play volleyball after school, i'll look for youuuuu!
WORK HARD FOR YOUR EOYS OK. haha, anything don't know, come ask me. (:
love you!, chu.
 
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i've been too quick to judge, to quick to anger, yet so slow to forgive, so slow to give a second chance. I want to accept others, and love them just as how Jesus loves me, but I find it so difficult. Each day, I find myself judging the people around me. I don't know, I just feel as though I'm someone different, and that I'm acting like some superior, arrogant person. It shouldn't be that way, it cannot be that way.

I'm willing to change, really. Because no one's ever gonna see Christ in me, if I continue acting this way. Please help me Father.
 
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YAY THE COMMON TEST IS OVER! :D
and history is a waste of time. rawr.
but then, world war 2 sounds interesting. The industrial revolution, great depression, opening of suez canal and world war 1 are very very boring.
Except for the torture by the Japanese. It's gruesome. But it's still more interesting, I guess. I was shrieking in history class just now. Aye, really goss. ): And eh, I'm terrified of pain. As in great pain. Rawr.

Got my chinese paper back today. :) yay, I'm a happy girl. first time i feel so proud about my results. (: and mathssss! sets is stupid. i could have gotten full marks. but then again. I'm still happy about my maths! Really grateful to God, because I was so certain that I would do badly for my languages, but yay, I did well. Now, hopefully, the other results are just as good.

2.4km today. I ran super slow. But it was an improvement from last year! I got like, E for 2.4 last year? And I got B this year! :) yay, praise God, 'cos my stamina was baaaaad, but He sustained me through. I thought I would have fainted or something. :S and thanks to kenneth who ran with me, haha.
my vicechair got like 12+ sec! aye, so fastttttt! haha. i wanna run as fast as her. nextyear nextyear! :) haha, and shue ting kept saying, "47! don't run so fast!" ;D

yayyy, i'm going to church tmrw. :D :D :D even though it means after the beach cleanup. :/ but still, happppppy! I've been waiting for tmrw since last wed! Aye, exciting, can't wait. :D so yeah, the thought of going to church is gonna make me happyhappyhappy tmrw!

i love amadea, hannah, li min and kenneth. :)

what i see reflected in your shades.

i've been sitting on a stool, no, not stool. uh, whatever, just call it a stool.
so yeah, i've been sitting on a stool for FOUR HOURS (not straight, thank God), just to finish my art homework. Why I had chosen to draw the Singapore flyer (no, it's not that picture up there) is beyond me. ANDDDD it's up close. -.- i should have chosen something like kaiyun's, so I don't have to go through this crazy torture. Now my butt is sore, and when I stand up, my back aches like some old granny. Aye, still haven't recover from napfa. ): but I'm quite proud of myself! :) at least the Flyer looks quite decent, and not like some.. I don't know. So yeah, all worth it!

now we know how teachers suffer when they have to mark hundreds of scripts. and speaking of teachers, I MISS MSKASSEYHENG! ): she can go high, like anytime, and aye, i miss her a lot!

and yay, i'm talking to girl! <3 miss her loads too, and the last time i saw her was during JJ Fair. and she's going off to beijing in three weeks time for her uni course. :) really happy for her, 'cos it's the course which she wanted. :) anddddd, she told me a little secret! ^_^ ok la, not really a secret, but i'm surprised she shared it with me. quite farnie la actually, but real sweet at the same time. (: aye, i miss girl. :/